The morning of March 29th around 1am our baby girl passed away. She has been fighting diabetes since well we don’t know how long but we found out she had sever diabetes back in November. Since then we give her two shots a day of vetsulin. The weekend before she got really sick we got very busy and I didn’t realize we were out of her medicine. Then I ended up getting a virus and couldn’t get out of bed for an entire day. I wanted to get her more asap but the vet office was closed thanks to the holiday weekend. So she went three days before I could get her to a vet and by then she had declined so quickly I knew it would be hard to save her. I took her anyways and they tried their best but she just didn’t have the fight in her. I loved that baby girl so much. Hell she was like one of our kids before we even had kids. She was our first baby girl. Roxanne was by far the best dog there ever was. She was loving, she slept with me and matt every single night of her life, she was gentle with our kids, loved our babies so much, loved to swim and fetch all day long, and more. She was just the best and I know its all my fault we lost her. The vets office and a friend tells me if she got that bad that quick it was coming. They tried to make me feel better but I know without a doubt she would probably still be here if it wasn’t for my mistake. I have to live with that for the rest of my life and I already have for two weeks and it is killing me.
My baby. You will never know how truly sad we are to lose you. You were apart of this family. Mommy is so sorry I let you down. I know you will forgive me because you never stayed mad for too long, as long as I would love on you. You brought so much joy to our life these past 10 years and it is going to be so hard to keep going without you. I pray that you weren’t in any pain when you passed. I know you were very sick and there’s nothing we could have done but I want you to know baby that we tried our very best. I miss you so much already and find myself not sleeping very well without you warming up my feet. You gave me security. Last Friday was the first night I have had to sleep without you and your daddy and I ended up not sleeping and crying all night long. You have left such an unbelievable huge hole in my heart. It will never be filled again because I am leaving that spot for you. There is no other dog, friend or family member that could ever take your place. You were my world and thank you for letting us be yours. We buried you in the backyard down by the lake where you loved to lay at and get some sunshine in between breaks of swimming and fetching your balls and sticks. I feel so blessed to have had you in our life. Thank you for letting us love you and you love us back. You are already missed and will never be forgotten my sweet girl. I hope you are out of pain right now and running as fast as you can after balls and swimming in lakes without getting tired. I love you Roxanne, I cant say it enough. Goodbye baby girl, Rest in peace my sweetheart.
Roxanne Vanzant Queen 2/14/2006-3/29/2016