Well, baby girl. It has come. Today you turned one year old. I can’t believe it. In the blink of an eye I found out I was pregnant with you, had you, brought you home, cuddled you and now you are one. Its just crazy.
I remember this time last year like it was yesterday. I was so exhausted because Jocelynn was up all night the night before having to go to the hospital. We had to be there at 6 so they could start prepping which meant we left the house around 5. I was very calm though. All morning. I mean, I had just been through this 15 months before so i knew what to expect. We got there and they started the IV. Shortly after that they gave me the ever so great epidural and waited until it was time to meet our “nugget”. I love the fact that we didn’t know whether we were having a boy or a girl. To be honest, I felt like she was a girl the whole time but the way she kicked and made my belly move made everyone else think it was a boy.
Around 8 am they wheeled me to the operating room. Transferred me onto the operating table, cleaned my belly and put a sheet up. Then they let Matt enter. He sat by my head and asked me if I was ok and I told him I was great. I was so great and relaxed that all of the nurses thought it was so funny. I just kept telling them “aint nothing but a thang”. My doctor walked in and we began. She told us it wouldn’t be long. The next thing I knew she pulled out a baby and said “Ohh its a very chunky little girl”! Of course I started crying. Correction.. Bawling. There is no better sound than to hear your baby let out a big cry when they enter this world. It is like they are letting everyone know “HEY! I’m here and glad to be out of there!” They took her to the table to get her measurements and clean her up a bit. I had a TV by my head so I could watch everything they did with her and it was wonderful. I got to watch her squirm and cry since I obviously couldn’t get up to see her. She weighed 8 lbs and 13 oz and was 18 1/2 inches long. I had myself a beautiful, chunky baby girl and I named her Madelynn Rae.
While they sewed me up, Matt and Madelynn went to the recovery room and got to bond a little bit. I took a short nap while they sewed me up because I was still so exhausted hah. The doctors and nurses laughed at me for it but when you got three that young all the sleep you can get is necessary. When they wheeled me into the room Matt handed me Maddie. I couldn’t believe it. This little nugget who had been kicking me and who gave me contractions for 15 weeks of my pregnancy was here. She was beautiful and perfect. She nursed right away. It felt so good to have that bonding time with her before taking her to meet the family. Keep in mind the family still didn’t know what the sex was so when we finally got into a room we told the nurse to call them back. They walked in and I said “Everyone.. meet Madelynn Rae”. They were thrilled. Everyone hugged on her and loved on her. Jocelynn and Jp were so young at that point they weren’t really interested but they did give her a kiss. And at last we were a happy family of 5.
I was so scared. Scared about raising three babies under 15 months, scared I couldn’t do it, just scared. Madelynn made everything so easy. She fit perfectly into our family. She never cried. Always played and has been the happiest, most full of life child I have ever met since I brought her home. There were some hard times but I wouldn’t trade it for anything because it is the best. Everything about being a mom to these three kids is wonderful and so fulfilling.
Maddie is the best child. She is happy, she is full of life, she is just everything and I love her so much. She has a lot of me and Matt in her. She goes with the flow, she gets mad when she needs to, and is happy the rest of the time. I thank God every day for choosing us to be her parents because I don’t know what I would do without this child in my life.
You are one! I love you so much baby. You and your siblings are my world. This past year has flown by but maybe this next year won’t so much. I’m looking forward to this next year with you. Watching you grow and become your own little person is already so exciting. You always seem to amaze me and I’m sure you will amaze me even more this year when you start talking, running, and playing. I love you with all of my heart my sweet angel. You are my sunshine;)
Its been an amazing year my sweet girl!! Happy Birthday!!